First off, I’m out here in Queens doing the preliminary data collection for a small re-engineering job. This one is just adding motion detectors on some of the lighting system. Will Robinson is going to let me sketch in the basic design, locating lights and sensors. It gets into electrical code after that, so the final designs will get passed on.
Secondly, Hannah and I will meet with Will this afternoon to finalize our plans for the wiring chase design we did. That turned out nicely, and I think we both learned a few things, while at the same time, we drafted a solid, efficient design. In one area, we saved about 400 feet of wiring.
Okay… I don’t know how many of you actually are interested in my engineering progress! No offense taken!
I can’t get Emma’s analogy about cows and bulls out of my head. Time-travel aside, putting Me, Emma, Devon, Hannah… and Addison… into close proximity would naturally lead to romantic ideas. And tensions. Someone once told me that you’ll never fall in love with someone you don’t meet. Well… obviously… The other side of the coin is that you might fall in love with someone you do meet.
I’d argue you are most likely to fall in love with someone you share time and space with frequently. Cows and bulls in a pen? Maybe not that basic… But, the more you’re around someone, the more likely you’ll think you are attracted to them or know that you’re not.
So, here’s how I see things in my little circle of contact.
I am personally confused by Emma and Hannah, both of whom I think I could be attracted to.
In the months Emma and I have been together, more and more I’ve found my thoughts resting with her, yet she made it clear that she didn’t want to be romantic just because we were together. I should have argued. Then, when camping, she opened the door with her “wish I hadn’t said that” comment, but there’s never been any follow-up and it seems she’s said all she wants on the matter.
Emma seems very content as the subject of Devon’s attention. And he seems fine giving it to her.
Devon and I are trying to be open about things, and he’s said he would be more than happy in a relationship with Emma, Hannah, or even Addison.
I’d be happy to try a dinner date with Addison except… I’m afraid it would throw fuel on the fire.
Example: Tom shared the drawings for the apartments. Devon and mine will be to the left of the top of the stairs. The door will open into an open-plan living room/kitchen on the left and bedrooms on the right. Emma’s will be at the top of the stairs to the right and will mirror mine. Addison's will be straight ahead from the stairs and will be a copy of Emma’s.
Addison caught me last time I was at the theater. “Did you see the plans? Our bedrooms will share a wall.”
“I suppose they will.”
Addison went on. “Don’t you think it will be hard to go to sleep knowing I’m lying in my bed hardly a foot away from you?”
I muttered some reply. Devon says she’s made similar remarks to him.
As for Hannah, after our date, I don’t know… She must not have liked it as much as I thought. Her Snaps show a definite change in mood.
She’s never sent nudes or anything close, but she’s always tried to look… appealing. Since our dinner the pictures have been… more sisterly than provocative. Last night, she Snapped herself in a bathrobe, but this time it was pulled closed all the way up to the neck.
So, I guess I turned out not to be what she hoped for. Or something… I don’t know.
So my take on things, overall… I’m going to try and be open to developing something with Emma or Hannah, if either of them show any interest in that. I’ll try and be nice to Addison without letting her jump the gate on things.
Devon will continue being Devon; he’s a nice, fun, likable guy, and both Hannah and Emma seem to enjoy that. Once he gets what he calls a real job, he says he’ll be ready to ask them out on dates.
That’s it. Basically I don’t know what’s going on, and it took me this many words to say that.
Thanks for being part of my story!
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